im feeling horrible !
can't stand, can't walk, can't bend my right knee .
but all i do is just cry .
now i understand how my girl said that shes afraid
about the backbone thing . now i guess
i totally understand how exactly she feels .
sigh , but if only i could still walk , jump :(
im afraid of the doctors .
im afraid of the pain .
im not heeding any advise .
cause its just so scary, that im scare off by doctors .
what if its fracture? what if the internal injury is serious?
what if, what if, what if . then what if i would
have to end up in wheel chair for weeks or months .
then i need to go to sch in wheel chair?
OMFG , its nightmare ! i never had such experience .
cry cry cry , oh damn , why can't i be strong
_|_ myself off ! i'd rather be dead than being in wheelchair .
i never wanna depend on anyone .
i wanna do what i want to ..
i hate it this way . being sucha lazy bum,
sitting infront of the computer, needing my brother
and my maid to help me in things .
i tried walking . but i couldn't . i could only hop .
and hopping around, im afraid if i fall while hopping .
some more injuries?
AHHHH ! I AM AFRAID ! ='(
panadols , counter pain creams , & milk to help me into sleep ..
DEPRESS !