i'm tired, seriously tired.
no one understands, i mean it.
don't look at all these by cover.
you guys initially thought that marco's a super nice guy too.
don't you? you guys insisted to blaming me.
but i doubt you know how i really felt.
i told him i'm a bully, i don't treat him good.
i'd feel guilty, i hate being in such a relationship.
if insisted that he treat me so good that,
i took advantage of him being so good, giving in to me.
then i doubt there's a point for this r/s to continue.
seriously, i want no more of all this.
YOU! you said marco treat me so bad why i still love him.
then you? why clar loves you but yet you still love him?
don't crap and say things like he had change .
nobody, can change for the better over small relationships.
ask you, if i know that marco's that bad, would i even accept him in the first place?
i'm a human, my girl. look at me! i'm a human.
i'm not a cold-hearted bitch who can just let go,
by saying let go. hey come on. and there's not comparison over
such period of relationship, and such period of relationship.
only your feeling towards that person, how deep is it.
everything i said about your life and relationship,
it all came true, didn't it? but you still chose not to listen to me.
why should i listen to you then? you know nothing.
nothing at all. my experiences of all these, happens all before you guys' happen .
mine happens first then yours. like that so called two timing felt.
you guys said i was so bad, but ended up, all of you, sisters.
you all came on the same boat and experience with me.
and you've got nothing left to say, right?
hey please, i seem quiet but i'm not that stupid alright.
i'm a human, i'm not an immatured lil girl .
i just have hot temper, thats all. but i believe, i'm not as stupid,
so as not to know even wtf i'm doing.
and why i'm bullying norman. natalie finally understood.
both of you? nah . i'm tired of explaining.
i don't wnna think about it, or even be mentioned of it.
whenever you guys mention, i cried.
not because im a cry baby, because you guys seems to love so much
shooting and shooting, without even putting your shoe in mine.
trying to understand.

i'm fuckin tired alright.
norman law, if you choose not to listen to any fucktard
i say, then just get out of my life.
because you chose not to listen to everything i say.
i believe you remembered almost nothing at all.
about the quarrels and the long messages i sent.
i'll tell you, its all from the bottom of my heart.
you chose not to listen, so you don't know nothing about me.
and also why you can't do anything much to improve this relationship.
you can't even help yourself. whats with helping this relationship?
i wish you could see this.. really .
i'm back to the shagged and crying baby me .
don't cling on a pointless relationship .
you don't care at all. you're pretending!
its all an act, you're alike marco!
but who knows?! they see the outside you.
but do they know what YOU really are?
i wished they understood what i was trying to say all these while.
its been 5months. but i'm so so mentally broke down .
i need a helping hand, i need a listening ear so much.