now, let me try to tell u why i don't love you alright,
hmm, the words you say and everything, are like stagelines
from the dramas you see -.-
don't say ya for the sake of saying or whatever LOL .
cause you'll only make me laugh -.-
well, and, you always ans things, when i ask you.
you would give the ans you think i would expect to want.
you know, you're really annoying and 'fake'
don't know what else of words to use on you.
but only the word fake. i may not know how to tell you.
but everytime i sends you long msges, you might just think,
its oh-crap huh? you don't bother anw, since you deleted 'em all.
even after you say you'll reaad properly or whatever.
you still deletes it. -.- you're a funny guy.
i don't know what ur up to seemingly. really,
you seems to have a motive. or you just don't know what love is?
love is not something like, you might say i love you everyday
or must do things like hold hands and everything.
i love marco deeply, very deeply once.
so must be kiss and everything to love each other deeply?
NO . well, we only held hand once. doesnt mean we dont love each other.
im trying very hard to let you know why i hate you.
if you don't bother, thats ur choice.
its been months that i've been trying to tell you and let you know.
but you don't seem to give a damn -.-
well you change subjects frequently too.
you don't get angry over me saying about marco.
you never will, in the past .
then when i ask you why didnt you get angry over it.
then after that you did . i mean, you're doing things for the sake of doing it man.
and please stop saying, i got no motive, only to care and love u.
cause its old fashion to use that alrd. prove it if you really do love me.
damn, everything's just hard to explain.
but im so glad girlfriends know how im feeling now. finally!!

for now, norman law,
just read this. i'll add on to more.
it always tires me when im to think of THIS r/s
i WANT to change this to the better.
or else i would have gave up like god damn long ago .
if i werent bothered, i would have gave up on you and this r/s
and not bothered to contact u and everything.
yeah i sometimes didn't do wad i says.
its not that big of a matter right.
its not about me, treating you fierce and you scared or wadever fuck
you're a guy. not a gay. dont give excuse like i scold u then
i'll say break so u dun dare to blahblahblah -.-
its all an excuse. you're just lousy and useless
you just cant control even abit of me,
so i could just talk to marco and everytihng,
as and when i like.


okay, continue later.
read first, norman



when i asks you if ur gnna post tday.
you say, tnight or else ur lazy to add on things when
thr are more things u wanna write. so u think its better to post at night.
well this may be a really small and casual stuff to talk about,
or to quarrel over.
but, this is only a small matter, you can't even keep your words
about this small matter you promised.
how can i trust you to promise me other more important
or bigger stuffs? you didn't even apologized until i reminded you
you think your worth my love and trust?
i don't even dare to tell you, go back and think properly or wad.
cause everytime u think or wad, u dun even know if u went
looking on internet about love stuffs anot.
i dunno if those are from the bottom of ur heart anot.
i just want the truth. friends say u wouldnt let me know the truth.
prove 'em wrong ? or are you just gnna make this stay this way.
dont say ya its from the bottom of ur heart, for the sake of saying.
i used to quite like you cause you were a straightforward guy.
well, its just a too much drastic change in you.