some fucktards dua me? _|_
yeah lah, wack here wack there,
wack him wack here. for all i care?
acting like one hooligans when people at YOUR age
shld be growing more matured and quit doing such stuffs.
and only now, your telling me you wack here and there.
come on lah. how old alrdy.
or are you just saying sucha thing,
to purposely make me worry for you?
fuck? just go listen to if i were a boy -- beyonce.
things are not so what you may think it is you know.
just stop trying to trip me over and fall on you again lah.
stop all your nonsense alright.
im so grateful i got a damn good bud right there for me,
worrying for me and spoke to me cheering me up.
whereas you're the culprit for all my fuckin tears.
why am i even be bothered when i cud be happy?
why talk to me when i didnt really want to?
why made me skip a beat and then heartbeat goes god damnit fast?
why do this when you no longer want me existing in your life?
why treat me this way when you once said we'll just be a stranger?
damn, whats on your mind? i freakin' don't know!
you wanna leave, fucking leave for all i care and never come back.
you still like me? then fucking stop running away and come back .
thats all, and simple. use your butt to think if you don't have a brain.
i'm exhausted you know? no, you fucking don't.
well just leave me alone. cause your existance in my life,
cause me breakdowns and everything bad you cud think of,
when someone's heartbroken in their worst state.
not on the outside of me, but only the inside of me . its crushed like you had nvr seen.
cuz you never got treated that way by me before.
i didnt like you in the first place, but stil, i dare not hurt you.
always placing words like, i dont care right in my words..
but have i ever meant that? i still care, i DO care damnit.
unlike you, meanie! i hate you! so fuck off if you have a girl in your mind.

yeah piece of shits .
am speaking shits outta my mind.
but i got no fuckkin guts to even say this to him.
damn im god damnit useless!
ahhh whatever!
had my second half of my today better anw..
with zhen and her friend. w/ someone smsing me almost thruout :)
anyone who treats me nice, i know, and i'm always grateful for it.
even tho, IF i never never shows 'em :D
okay, whatever it is.. i broke my promised for not crying over some fag.
nevermind.. i'll forgive myself :X
since i promised someone else i wont be thinking of that fag over this CNY ..
okeh, im sleepy now :S
GOODNIGHT!



- i love you, not for what you are.
but for what i am, when i'm with you.