It was a last minute meet up decision when it was late afternoon.
I called Rio and asked where you guys were, then i walked towards the coffee shop.
First time meeting the 3 of you. You looked a lil dao or rather shy then.
Ries looked really friendly, and first thing i asked Rio was,
erm, why are you so tall? then they just laughed..
After bowling, headed and walked to the well knowned nasi lemak nearby.
Saw Lilian, and Rio went like, wah, her teritory, so many friend -.-
Sat at the coffee shop, talking to JunJie with vulgarities and humourous jokes.
You were giggling and smirking beside me.
First thing you asked was, what i wanted to drink, then you got me ice-milo.
Can't remember vividly but if i am not wrong, its ice-milo :)
Sat there chatting, until it turns dark, then i heard you had to go for bball torn.
Saw kenneth and his cliques then, and walked away after abit.
Walked over to cheers, bought softies, and pet shop.
Then i remember we got back to kovan somehow and stood outside KFC,
talking and refusing to walk away, or go home.
You were soso shy! Then both of us trained back while Ries and Rio bussed or somethin.
i scanned but someone cut and went in. I shouted back for you,
to help me, you came all the way up and scanned out and in again for me.
MC called me, you look pretty dejected when i told you.
You had to take the other side, so, its goodbye then.
Reached hougang and when i was in bus, i remembered you msged me,
asking me why was i so quiet. Haha, was such short and sweet day :)
Then as time goes by, the day when agnes and i was going to min's house,
for cookie baking session. We were smsing and you asked me if you could be with me.
You gave the number of reasons why i shld accept you, and the number of reason,
was the number i gave. Was 10 reasons then i increased it to 20. Haha.
If i weren't wrong, it was on the 12th February 2008.
then somehow, until the 13th February 2008, i told you to wait til 12am .
We were on phone, when 12 strikes, i didn't know what to say,
so i dragged it for a couple of minutes and i finally said, sms can? HHAA!
Then you were smirking and said, oh, haha okay.
I told you its a yes, but i'll not be as nice as you think, like some other gfs can be.
accepted you and somehow 12.05-12.07am, we were together..
Until we broke up permanently, the messages on 14 February 2008,
was kept well on my other phone. But had to clear them off, since you changed..
then on the 14th, we went pasir ris park. I accompanied you for a bball thingy.
and played around with your new phone. Turned dark, went back interchange.
Bought old chang kee. Was just old change kee, but wasn't it sweet?
It had been really nice.. You didn't let me board on the bus cause you thought,
i wouldn't finish the stuffs i bought at OCK, with our empty stomachs.
So you insisted i had to finish them up. The queue was so long, then the bus ran,
and came another really soon ..
The next day, you accompanied me to leonard's school for his rugby match.
were having so much fun.. even on my birthday last year,
you, ries, rio, alvin, claudia(?) i think, surprised me at ktv :)
thanks, it was awesome, you guys were so so sweet!
Headed to marina's yoshinoya, you liked yoshi alot then.. Even played with the food..
Haha, we had tons and tons of unbelievable funs outside, for 6 months.
Until when your 'N' level was coming, everything changed, totally.
Unfaithfulness, Unloyalness and dishonestly, everything!
Outing with your parents was fun too. You dote on me so much ..
Especially during my recovering period stay home over operation.
You came my house frequently just to takecare of me.
Bought meals for my family, cleared my house, room, fed me meals,
and clear them for me. Just how nice, haha. Never regret those moment with you.
I know that sounds old-fashioned, but its just from the bottom of my heart.
My dear, this could have been our 1st Year anniversary.
You once said you wanna cycle me to ROM. Have a type of home,
with some specific furnitures we had seen special. Whole parents to live with us,
and rooms for who and etcetc. Haha, your warm hugs and shoulders,
when i was down, crying. I can never forget them. Your foolishness,
not knowing how to be there for me, you would just stay still staring,
and looking at me without knowing what to do. That silly face is just so cute.
Then things changed, you were so cunning and everything bad.
I couldn't stop crying every single day, and some day i wondered,
who are you really, you just told me humans do change. You were cruel,
but that's what it is, unchangeable. Everytime i miss you, i wonder,
would you be thinking of me right now too?
I refuse to let you go, refuse to forget you, i want you back, i really do.
But i can't show, and i can't feel or think that way.
Deep down, i had tons to ask you, but every once i see you online.
I know you would say something to poke my heart so it'll start bleeding again.
So i never dared to after couple few times i tried. Then i got fear from it.
Its pretty obvious you were just trying to make me get away from you.
Probably you didn't want me to stay with you and cry, or perhaps,
you just want me out of your life. You said, you just wanna be a stranger with me.
But i really can't get why you still would talk to me.
I should be happy, but like most people know, i hate having (?)
inside of me, even though i can simply say, i don't care.
Thats just crap of shit. I can't believe i'm still hesitating whether or not,
to give you stuffs on v.day. Haha, i was so happy when i got the sweet from daiso.
No idea why you would ask me to enjoy them. But one thing i wanna know..
would you think back of us when you see stuffs regarding us?
Like when you see sweets we use to always buy together, and places we been often?
Would i cross or even flash for half a second in your mind?
I really wonder, but you hate being questioned too much .
I doubt you because i was afraid of losing you.
The more i love you, then the more i don't wanna let you go,
and the more i would hold you right, the more you possibly leave me.
How to? its hard. I don't know if i'm able to wait for you til your attachment starts.
I guess i wish you could do well. Can i please have the bear back?..
I miss him, i really do .. Hoping i could drink well tomorrow,
and preferbly, not think of you too much .. I don't wanna cry tomorrow..
Remember this song?
You smsed be after you told me you were gonna sleep.
But you heard it on the TV.
And said you would do whatevers on this lyrics, for me.
Saying its really sweet :)
i'll never forget, never ever..
