Everything happens for a reason.

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sounds abit noisy lah. but, yah. haha! easily irritated one,
don't try playing the videos lol. low quality too..
well no idea why, but the whole class was super tired.
spent our PE at this wrestling thing.
there were the press there, and would be on channel news asia :D
alan wu was there! well if i never spelt wrongly lah ahha!
don't understand what he was talking, cause it was so very fast -.-
passed my chinese test, yay! :D tomorrow, SS test.
shit lah, damn worried :( .. and i'll be sooo alone tomorrow lol
sec4s not around. and yeh, after school, accompanied clara,
wait for her dad and talk to mrs chong and mr ho.
took rather long hours lol. then his dad drove us to RP.. ahhh gosh ..
then, he treated us mac. pffffft. i swear i felt damn bad -.-
he went walking aruond while we eat. then he came in after finishing window shoppin
then he sat at the other table. which i feel double bad..
he then drove us home. ahhhhhh! her dad is sooooo awesome :X
bestest daddy eh? ahhha! :D then yeah, nothing much i suppose.
screamed at boon for messing my hair -.- pfffffft.
having dry eye. and my face.. i wanna get my moisturizer soon (:
saturday, kbox i think? and bugis hopefully. heh..

small alan wu :(

better than none right. heh can see his fitfit body! :D

amni & i :D

yes i'm avoiding everything that is running towards me,

that might hurt me in some ways.

i guess it might, so i'm avoiding it.

i know, avoiding does nothing good.

and i know, the more i avoid, then in the near future,

something even worse will happen. i guess i'm ready for it.

at the moment, the numb-ness inside of me.

i see everything, i watch happenings that would spike my heart.

but, all i feel is the suffocation, no pain.

it feel bad, too. Duh. but, really, bearable.

not pain, just uneasy. people ask me, how am i.

i guess i'm fine. cause i don't know either.

i'm standing in a middle of no where.

i dont know where to turn/walk/move on.

i WANT to move on. but move where? to what?

hah, i really don't know..

one thing on my mind, i don't know why,

but i feel kind of happy, but a lil hatred and jealousy inside of me..

when i see you dote on her alot, care and worry for her..

you love her. (:

i wanna hate you, i wanna just, leave it and move on.

ah holy shit. how? i tried talking, venting, shouting,

screaming, listening to songs, and so far,

i can't cry. stuck haha! like again,

i think i'm happy.. but its just hard to vomit out the uneasy-ness

i hope kbox would help.. with the superwoman ahhha! :D

i don't feel nothing at all when i always do hold on to the necklace.

i don't feel anything. seriously.

but when i thought i lost that,

i had that urge to cry.

its just like the story goes between the both of us.

when i had you, i didn't care, i thought it wasnt anything.

i thought its just another passer guy who would poke my heart again.

yes you did, its true. but in a way i didn't expect.

in fact, when i lost it, i feel it. then i feel the pain.

when your around, i feel numb. i doubt, i cry, i suspect.

i'm just not so ready to get into another relationship.

living my own life is what i want now..

but you, why did you even pass by -.- ..

irritating Zzz..